Well, this evening I assisted at the scene of a car crash. I heard a very very loud crash outside my apartment and ran across the road to find I was the first one on the scene and that the front of the hit woman’s car (Kendra) got crushed hitting a telephone pole head on, and the man who hit her (Brady) was writhing on the ground. He had serious chest pain but no wounds and though he lost consciousness once or twice I was able to wake him. Between the two of them those were the only injuries. A few other people actually stopped and helped until the authorities got there, and both Kendra and Brady were put in ambulances and taken to the hospital. They both are lucky they did not suffer more serious injuries. The man was suspected to be drunk, but he was really concerned for Kendra so at least he cared about the person he hit. And of course we know it wasn’t luck that protected them-it was God. He is amazing. Without his peace and the way he cleared my head, I wouldn’t have been able to help them. He brought helpful loving people so the victims of the crash and myself weren’t alone and responsible authorities. I was disappointed that though many people were right there when it happened that during the 2 minutes it took me to run out there nobody stopped to help a man who had collapsed and a woman who rammed into a giant pole. So, I hope that if you ever witness something like this, I hope you are the one who helps, not keeps driving… but God had a plan and all is fine for the most part. ♥ Take a moment to thank Him for protecting us every minute and for the people who work to take care of people in trouble. God is great. :)

“I like drinking coffee alone and reading alone. I like riding the bus alone and walking home alone. It gives me time to think and set my mind free. I like eating alone and listening to music alone. But when I see a mother with her child, a girl with her lover, or a friend laughing with their best friend, I realise that even though I like being alone, I don’t fancy being lonely. The sky is beautiful, but the people are sad. I just need someone who won’t run away.”

—Anonymous

the girl of stone.

Keep your distance
reach for me slowly
no sudden movements
I’m denying I’m lonely
widdle me down
warm me up
before you test my heart
or still you’ll find it’s hard
hit     hit     hit
with a hammer
does it even crack?
even just a sliver?
If it does keep on me
keep warming and testing
for only you can bomb the shell
and endure me
until my heart is soft enough
to touch
to hold
to cling to
and
then you’ll make a difference
and be in the books
for melting
the girl of stone.

“We have to allow ourselves to be loved by the people who really love us, the people who really matter. Too much of the time, we are blinded by our own pursuits of people to love us, people that don't even matter, while all that time we waste and the people who do love us have to stand on the sidewalk and watch us beg in the streets! It's time to put an end to this. It's time for us to let ourselves be loved.” 

—C. JoyBell C.

 "I tear my heart open,

 I sew myself shut

My weakness is that I care too much

I tear my heart open just to feel

And my scars remind me that the past is real."

-Papa Roach, Scars

My soul thirsts for you.

1 O God, you are my God; earnestly I seek you; my soul thirsts for you; my flesh faints for you, as in a dry and weary land where there is no water.
2 So I have looked upon you in the sanctuary, beholding your power and glory.
3 Because your steadfast love is better than life, my lips will praise you.
4 So I will bless you as long as I live; in your name I will lift up my hands.

-Psalm 63:1-4

Hi there..in case we haven't been introduced!

I’m Emilie-I’ll be 18 on July 27th. :)

I’m a wallflower, a thinker, a tea and coffee drinker, a reader, a writer, a flower presser, a music listening, people watching, laughing much too loud type, an encourager, a romantic, a person with a lot of fear, I’m loyal, I’m hopeful, I’m honest. I look for sparkling beauty in a dark paradise, I over use the word lovely, and I’m desperate for hugs. I can be made very happy by the littlest, perhaps even silliest things, and made sad almost just as easily. I’m abusively insecure of myself, easily attached, and as timid as a bunny rabbit because of the hurt people inflict. But I chase after compassion and affection from others like my life depends on it. But most of all I have hope in a beauty that never dies, because I have hope in Jesus Christ. He breaks my heart for what breaks His, and I’ve begun to consider it my spiritual blessing. It helps me love people..it helps me love Him.

{Caught Lovely Handed}

Like those security camera shots that are popular because they actually catch people doing kind or courageous things things I love to catch people doing something with a lovely hand (:


As I’m sitting in Starbucks today while my sister works the bar an older man goes over to the condiment bar, fixes up his coffee, and then takes a napkin and completely cleans off the condiment bar. As I was returning to my seat I said, “Aw you’re nice.” because I know how much it bothers my sister that people throw half & half around the condiment bar. He looks up and I can tell he isn’t one of those jolly-early-in-the-morning-folks and just says “it just shouldn’t be like this.” I smiled at him. “Yes you’re right.”

Guys it’s a small thing to clean up after yourself. Honestly. But think about it, you don’t enjoy cleaning up other peoples mess, so why would the workers at your local Starbucks? A little mess is expected, but if you spill, wipe it up. It’s lovely, and is a little thing that can help make a Baristas day better. :)

Prayer request.

Please pray for my friend Hannah. She’s suffered from chronic headaches for years but she got a migraine over a week ago that has been going strong since. This is her third trip to the hospital this week and they admitted her overnight this evening. She’s having tests done tomorrow and is hopefully going to see a neurologist Tuesday. Please pray for her strength and peace and that its nothing serious.

“There's a reason why stars can only exist in the sky—they're just rockets of light traveling through space, so it feels right to admire their form from a distance. People, solid and living and breathing together in the same world, are not meant to be surrounded by that much darkness.” 

― Katie Kacvinsky, Awaken